He makes all things good

I had an unusual flood of emotions wash over me a few hours ago. Not that me being emotional is unusual these days, but I was so taken off guard it makes me wonder what's really behind the tears. Again, I have been crying, but not for me. I had a friend send me a text about an hour ago. I was coming home from work and had just pulled in to the garage. I cannot share what was written in the text, but it gripped my heart so tightly and before I even got through reading I was sobbing. My heart knows all too well about the pain of what the words meant. But, while it is painful to hear what this friend is struggling with it is good to know(from experience) that God will carry this person through their pain. And, not only will he carry them through, but He has brought me through the same kind of situation so that I can walk along side of them in love and understanding. I love that He loves me more than I can ever imagine. Because what I imagine sometimes is not so great. Despite what I think...His love is constant, never ending and good. He will walk through the waters with you, friend. I know that. I trust that and I believe that.

I learned a phrase in Africa. As stated before it is sometimes hard for me to believe, but nevertheless, is true. Yesu Mulungi... God is good. I can really tell that God is changing my heart. It may not be visible to others or even to the ones closest to me, but I feel it. I'm not even sure what that feeling is, but it's there. Friday night was our monthly feed the homeless night. Julie and I usually ride together down to Linn Park. The closer we got to the park the more I didn't want to go. I guess the best way to put how I was feeling is anxious. I really had been looking forward to going down there all week, but as soon as we got in the car I, all the sudden, didn't want to go...didn't feel like reaching out... didn't feel like showing God's love...didn't feel like being nice. For the first 30 minutes or so I walked around handing out water and food trying not to interact with the people. I was thinking that maybe if I stayed busy passing out things then I wouldn't have to get my hands dirty and sit with the people and hear about their lives. But, after a while God tugged at my heart and I knew I needed to love on them. I went and sat with one of our friends, Latonya. She is the life of the party out there and usually keeps us cracking up at her...which I'm pretty sure she loves. Over the next hour God completely changed my heart. It went from being hard and cold to compassionate and loving. There is a lot I could say about what I heard and who I met that night, but the purpose for me writing this is to say that God is good. Even though my heart was sinful and cold in the beginning He wanted to teach me a few things through our friends down there. I am so grateful for the ministry that our singles group has with the homeless every month.